See Through Thoughts February 27, 2008

I just got finished browsing an old friend/boyfriend’s website and picture gallery.  He has had this website for years now and this is the first time I really looked at the pictures and read the remarks.  I find myself in this weird nostalgic place.  He will always be a friend of mine and even more, a teacher.  The things I learned about nature and perserverance are many and deep.  I feel like I have lost so much of those things I wanted to be.  It is no ones fault but my own.  I have no true discipline’s in my life.  I kinda do yoga and I sort of work out but I give into whims and wants.  Nothing has really stuck with me over the 28 (soon to be 29) years I’ve been alive.  If anything I’ve gone further from spirit; nature needs to be my second home.  There’s a sparkle that happens in the eyes of someone who is living as purely as they can.  It comes from earthly things, not man made.  So, I am making a vow that I will spend more time with the trees and wind and less time with the remote and computer.